Thursday May 5th 2011- Day 122

He and I text from 4:30 am on so I'm texting him as I get out the bed & start getting ready for my day. It's 1 of those long but necessary convos we have every so often. I keep texting him as I rush out the door to get my bus. My bus gets to the station early and I hop on the early train to Foggy Bottom station. I get to radiation by 7:40 am and I'm the 2nd patient to arrive. Even the receptionist hasnt arrived yet. I wait for only 5 mins and then I'm called down to the treatment area. I change and go into treatment. After 5 mins of treatment I'm up & back out to change. When I walk into change there is another woman changing & she looks up pissed. Apparently there is radiation etiquette I havent learned yet. In my gym women all change in the same area so it's not a big deal, but here in radiation while 1 woman is changing the next person must stand by & wait until she's finished. WTF? This is so asinine & such a waste of my damn time. While you're taking all day to get ready I'm supposed to just stand around waiting? For what? I mean we're all women, we're all here going through treatment and we're all in a rush to get in and get out as fast as possible so what's the big damn deal if you see my breasts while I'm trying to get dressed or undressed? I've posed nude on the internet, I've changed in a lockeroom at my gym, I have no problem against being topless in front of folks. It's not like we're going to stand there staring at each other. I'm trying to hurry just like you are. Ugh. This stupid shit is going to annoy men before these 6 1/2 weeks are up. I leave and hop on the subway 2 stops back to McPherson Square and walk to my block. I stop & get a protein smoothie & then stop at CVS to pick up some supplies to help me get through radiation. I buy baby body wash, woolite & baby powder with cornstarch. This is on top of the calendula cream and aluminum free deodorant I already purchased. All this shit is expensive and annoying as hell that I have to buy but if it helps keep the burning, drying, peeling, blistering, etc to a minimum I'll do it. So far none of those things have happened but they tell me it will start as of next week so I want to jump on it early before it does happen. Maybe I can avoid those things happening all together if I treat it before it happens. You know like my dad says "clean it before it gets dirty & you wont have to clean" If I treat it before it happens maybe I can keep it from happening. At least I hope so. I've already switched to wearing a sports bra which I hate because it makes my breast look flatter but I know I dont want to cause unneccessary damage to my right breast so no underwire for now. My breast is already feeling a little tender so let's try to be gentle with it. I get to work at 8:50 am which shocks my co-worker. I tell her that I asked folks to be here to make sure just in case I was late someone was here to open the office up but because my treatment is so early I figure this is just precautionary. Part of my staff is going over to an award judging so I know I'm going to have a long wait for lunch relief. Sure enough I dont get a lunch break till after 3 pm. My sports bra arrived today so I decide to go workout. I dont want to sweat too much but I want a good workout so I decide to do some circuit training. I love lifting and after 25 mins I'm finished & leave the gym to grab some lunch from CVS. I get back at 4:15 so eat quickly and hurry up to finish out my day. I write Univ of Tenn finally about getting a delayed entry. I look around for scholoarships to get some money. I leave work & head home. I shower as soon as I get in & cook some dinner. I eat dinner & I'm in bed by a little after 9. I get up to take some motrin cuz I'm a little sore from working out & take some sleep supplements & go back to bed. It's going to be an early day again tomorrow.