Friday April 8th 2011- Day 95

Today is my first post surgery recovery day. I'm glad that the lymph nodes tested negative for cancer and that they only had to remove 2. I'm even more grateful that because of that I go to come home and sleep in my own bed. Here I can lay in a comfy bed with 3 layers of mattress pads. I can run my fan to keep me cool and my humidifer to keep the air moist to try and cut down on my nose bleeds. I can also keep the heat on so that it's toasty warm when I get out the bed. I'm going to stay home from work today and allow my body to heal. My right breast and arm pit are tender but not unbearable. Definitely less pain then the back pain that the neulasta shot causes. I know I'll be ok. I spend the day resting, laying in bed writing and napping when I can. I eat a little but mainly I try to take it easy. I cant shower yet but I do remove the bandages. I stand in the mirro and look at my breast. There is a 1 inch scar on the inside of my right breast and a half inch scar under my right arm pit. When I look at my breast straight on in the mirror I dont notice any difference in their size. The tumor had been real small so there isnt any noticeable difference between the 2. I am grateful for that. It means that the chemo did its job even if I had to suffer a lot in the process. All I do now is pray that I get the all clear in 10 days. I spend all day not hearing from him so I dont bother to text him. He finally text me late that evening but he keeps the convo short & I dont bother to try to force him to talk. I'm tired and I want to rest. I go to bed early around 9 pm and I sleep broken through the night.