Sunday April 17 2011- Day 104

Miguel gets home from Novia Scotia around 12:45 pm. I havent gotten up yet so I finally get out the bed when he gets in. I realize I need to start getting ready if my brother is going to show up around 2. I figure he'll call me first and let me know he's on the way. As I step out the shower and grab my phone I see a text from my brother letting me know he's out front. Crap! I now have to rush to get dressed and ready. I throw on clothes and rush out the door. Robert and I ride and talk all the way to his house. When I arrive Carla immediately hands me Tatiana. I put her on her usual spot on my left shoulder and walk with her to the livingroom. WHen I get there my dad is sitting there and I come and sit next to him and talk. We talk about my meeting with my doctor on Tues and I go over what I was told on Thurs. We are both happy. He sticks around for awhile and I get to play with Tati as she wakes up and falls back to sleep. I lay her over my heart and snuggle in with her. I just love to hold her and look at her. She is my reason for living. She is my kindred spirit and when I'm with her I remember why I fight this battle everyday. When she wakes I walk and talk with her..so long as I stay in motion she doesnt cry..she has me trained that way. I stand in the mirror and show Tati her reflection which makes her laugh..love the sound of her laugh. This baby is what keeps me going. I get a text around 9 pm from him saying he will come to town tomorrow morning. Aww hell. I didnt really think he would come but now I have to plan to have the day off. I stay and have dinner with my brother's family and finally get home around 10. Before I go to bed I book a hotel room near BWI Airport and let him know I'll be there to meet with him at the airport in the morning. I'm nervous as hell but need to sleep so I go to bed around 12 and keep waking up every hour or so through the night.