Wednesday March 30 2011- Day 86

Its a slow day. I have no plans for the day..my mind is still racing and thinking of surgery next week. I'm still getting sick everyday. The weather has been rainy and cold and that always slows my treatment down. I get hungry but eating just leads me to get sick so I spend many days just drinking Glucerna and popping pain meds til I sleep. There is constant pain and nausea. I dont know how I drag myself out of bed each day and go to work but somehow I manage. Once I get home I crash and burn and sleep almost completely through the night. I'm tired all the time. I take naps at work even during my lunch hour. I truly hate what chemo is doing to me. I am worn out physically emotionally mentally and spiritually. I can only pray that my misery will end soon.