Monday February 7 2011- Day 35

I would try to go into work but I'm thinking its in my best interest to give myself one more day to recover. I still have to take the 2 Dexamethasone, 1 Loratadine twice a day today so need to remember that. I stay in bed most of the day and rest. I'm not 100% but I'm not terrible I just wanted the extra rest. Chemo is harder on the body then people realize. Not only the physical demands but the daily stress of trying to feel normal when in reality you really dont. Normal is different on different days. Some days normal is how much pain can you tolerate. Other days normal is almost close to what you remember before this began. Normal today is how much pain can I bare and how tired do I feel. I sleep most of the day. Resting, relaxing, eating some. My appetite is a little better. The Ondansetron stimulates my appetite so it makes me eat, but now I'm always hungry. I'm not a small girl so this isnt going to work for long. The Oxycodone always makes me dizzy and I hate that feeling but the back doesnt hurt so I must choose between dizzy or hurting. Not an easy choice. I look forward to going back to work tomorrow. Not because I want to go to my job, but because it gives me something to focus on other than laying in bed not feeling good. I spend part of the day making both mine and my roommate's beds. I do this because I want his other mattress pad that I strip off his bed before putting the new one on and then put 3 layers of mattress pads on my bed. I feel like the princess and the pea but if it helps me sleep I'm all for it. Takes longer than I plan to finish because I keep having to stop when I get tired or too sore but they are done before he gets home. We both enjoy our new beds that night but I realize I'm going to have to bring my pillow at work home cuz the new one I have is too firm for me and it makes my back and neck hurt. Ugh.