Sunday February 6 2011- Day 34

With lesson learned on the Dexamethasone I make the point of eating first before I pop my morning round of meds. Today I have to take the Dexamethasone and Loratadine twice a day (morning and night) instead of just once. Ok fine whatever. I take the morning dose along with the Oxycodone for the pain. Today the pain is worse. I know what the Neulasta is doing but what it does to me physically sucks in the interim. C'est la vie. Today is Super Bowl time so I dont really care. We need to do some things early so we can be back home in time for the game. My roommate and I get dressed and first place we head is to a wig shop up the street from our apt. I like the head scarves, but its cold in the winter and I'd like to have my head more covered. Not only that the scarves seem to highlight more that my head is bald and there are times when they are too loose or come unwrapped and I dont want them to come off and have people stare. I mean I'm comfortable with my baldhead now but I dont want to have to explain my baldhead to people. Not only that I worry about my little nephews who are 2 and 3. I dont want them to be traumatized if it happens. They are too little to understand. So we hit the Wig Outlet and shop around. I dont know how much Miguel is going to be able to help..but I know if something is terrible he's going to be honest. The woman behind the counter gives me a wig cap and I walk around looking for a wig. I try one on but once it's on I hate it. I keep looking. My favorite way to wear my own hair is in loose spiral curls around my shoulder so this is what I'm looking for. I ask the woman about lace front. She tells me that lace front or a wig with bangs would be my best best for now. I like her..she doesnt draw attention to my baldhead and is very helpful picking out styles and color. We finally get a lace front wig with the loose spiral curls I want and I try it on. It is a little longer than I anticipated, almost to my midback but I love the look and color and style. I set it aside and keep looking for another. I go to the human hair section. Other than price I really dont see what's so special about them. By now more customers are coming in. I want to hurry now cuz I dont want to hang around with a bald head. I pick a blondish shoulder length straight hair style with bangs. Once I try it on I hate the color. I tell the woman I like the style but the color is horrible. She disappears and comes back with the identical wig in a dark brown with light brown hightlights. I try it on. Perfect. It looks almost like my natural color. I decide this will be my everyday wig. In it I look the most like myself. The most like me before this all began. In the meantime I ask her to trim the lacefront of the curly wig. Another patron of the store looks at me and tells me how good I look in the wig I have on saying she didnt realize it was a wig. Wow..that seals it. I smile as the clerk finishes trimming my lace front wig. She then slips the straight one off and slips the curls on and styles it. Once its done I love it. The curls are parted off to the left and fall over my left eye in a sultry manner. I decide to keep it on and we pack up the straight one to go. I buy 2 wig caps, detangler and a comb as well as the 2 wigs. I leave the store feeling much more confident and normal. I smile as we ride down the road. We go to visit Miguel's mom over at his grandfather's house. She loves my curly wig and tells me how much I look just like me in it. I like that. We chill for awhile but I start to get very hungry so we finally leave and stop and get some food before hitting Target. With my back giving me so many problems I need to buy a mattress pad for my bed. It's a little too firm for my very tender back. I get a mattress pad and a new pillow and we head home. Its getting late in the evening and I want to lay down before the game begins. Im tired already. My energy levels arent normal yet so just those short trips have taken everything out of me. I eat and lay down and wake up in time to watch the Super Bowl. I manage somehow to stay awake through the whole game but collapse in deep sleep shortly afterwards.