Thursday February 10 2011- Day 38

Thursday I wake up and after a horrible night I've decided I'm not taking any of my medications. I am determined to have a normal day damnit. I get up get dressed and go to work. I stop at CVS and get me some thermacare heat wraps and a bottle of motrin to get through the day. Without medicine my day is going to be alot tougher I'm sure. I put the heatwrap on and take 2 motrin but nothing really seems to make the pain in my back subside. I must get up frequently and move around to get the pain to ease up enough for me to function. As the day progresses I notice Im starting to feel worse and worse by the minute. By the end of the work day I am barely able to hold it together. I am achy sore tired sick in pain nauseous feverish..like a bad case of the flu. I hurry to get home and barely get in the door before I collapse in the bed shivering with chills and burning up. My back is in screaming pain and I'm nauseous and extremely dizzy. So taking the oxycodone makes me sick but not taking any medicine makes me even sicker. Ugh! I'm not a medicine person so this bullshit is annoying me. I'm sick of being dependent on these drugs to function but I have no choice but to deal with them for now. Lesson learned very painfully and I spend the entire night so sick I cant even make myself eat.