Saturday, January 15, 2011-Day 12

I wake after a fitful unpleasant night of sleep to a screaming pain in my lower back. I cannot begin to describe this pain to you. Maybe the way a shotgun blast in the back would feel. I dont know. All I can tell you is that I have never been in this much pain in my entire life. To make matters worse the small case of the sniffles I've had now seem to be a full blown cold and sneezing makes my back clench up further which brings me to tears. I eat some breakfast which again gives me diarrhea and I'm getting increasingly sick of eating because I cannot keep any food on my stomach and the constant going to the bathroom is leaving me raw and bloody as well as tired and dehydrated. Besides the effort to get off the bed each time is getting harder and harder as the pain in my back and left arm dont allow me to just get up off the bed easily. I go and lay in bed in my roommate's room so I can talk with him and doze off every so often with him in the background. When pain medication wears off he brings me more. I eat and take the meds and then try to sleep more. I try to enjoy the playoffs but I cannot get the pain in my back to stop to enjoy the games and I keep taking motrin and advil pm to try to sleep off as much as I can. Nothing helps the pain. My family keeps texting and calling and I try to keep an upbeat tone though I'm in pain and very sick. I dont tell people about the diarrhea or that the smell of certain foods now make me sick to my stomach. I cry nonstop and constantly and sleep when I can passing out in exhaustion when the clenching in my stomach or crushing pain in my lower back pass away enough. My cousin wants to bring food by she has made for me but I cannot imagine trying to get off the bed so I text her and tell her to wait til Sunday. I'm praying by then that the pain will pass so I can feel a little better. I lay in bed hour after hour eating, getting sick, sleeping, crying and watching tv when I can. God give me the courage and strength to get through this.