I got to workout a 2nd day at the gym which felt even better than the first day. My roommate's girlfriend came to town so he booked a hotel room downtown for her and him and the baby so I have the apt all to myself. On the days I feel well I like being in the house alone and just resting in the bedroom. It's relaxing and quiet.
The day wasnt real eventful so I wanted to share something about my beliefs. I've already shared my deep spirituality but another thing I believe in is spirits. I guess folks would call them ghosts but I prefer to call them spirits. I believe in them. I believe because I have seen them for myself. No nothing like the Ghost Whisperer or anything like that. I've never seen faces or held conversations or anything like that. When I've seen spirits they've appeared like a shadow. I cant make out faces but I can see them and I'm sure they can see me. Ive had one that til this day I'm sure was my mother standing over my bed watching me. Most times I just see them walk across the room and disappear. I was 9 when I first started seeing them. It used to scare me. I was afraid of the dark. To this day I have to sleep with every door completely closed. Even still I've gotten used to seeing the spirits; they dont bother me and I dont bother them. There are times when I dont see them, but I can feel them. I have a sense that someone is around me near me. Again even then I've learned to just not let it bother me. I dont think spirits mean any harm. My beliefs in the afterlife vary from most people. I dont necessarily believe in heaven and hell in any traditional sense. I believe that you leave this plane of existence and continue on in spirit form into the next plane of existence. You have the freedom to journey whereever whenever you want. To explore the pyramids of Egypt or the depths of the Atlantic Ocean. Mind you I dont know anymore than the next person what reality is like but that is what I believe. That is why I believe spirits are all around us. I think every so often they want to check on us and make sure we're ok. They try to look in on us unobserved and for the most parat they do. Now when they want to speak to us they can talk to us in dreams. Around the age of 21 I was dating a guy who was very abusive to me. One night I had a dream about my step-mother. I was just a little girl again sitting at the dining room table I grew up eating on and my step-mother was sitting at her spot at the head of the table talking to me. The only thing was she was talking about my relationship with this guy. She was telling me I needed to be careful and I needed to watch out for myself and to get out of the relationship. When I woke up I was confused..my step-mother had died 2 years before..how was she talking to me about a current relationship? I knew later that this was her way of speaking to me. I havent dreamed of her since but others have spoken to me or made their presence known to me. When my young cousin passed away a few years ago I kept dreaming about him and thinking about him. I kept feeling him around me all the time. In life he and I hadnt been close and I had never known all that he had gone through, but in passing I missed him terribly and I couldnt shake him for days. I awakened in the middle of the night 1 night crying missing him but feeling him close to me. I started talking to him. I got off the bed and got a piece of paper and within a few minutes I had written a poem to him letting him know that I knew he was with me. I felt a sense of peace and calm come over me..I knew that he knew. After that I felt a warmth and a happiness because I knew he was with me and in my heart and he knew I knew he was close to me. I cant explain my sense of spirits anymore than that. It is not a creepy spectacle or anything off paranormal whatever the heck shows. I find most of those shows stupid. I dont tell people about seeing spirits because I know people will think I'm crazy, but I can only tell you how I feel and what I believe. Whether you choose to believe is your decision.
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