I guess it's officially been 1 week now. It's still hard to believe but I have come to accept it. Other than my sister in law dropping off a yummy peanut butter chocolate cake her friend Tiffany made my day was very relaxed and quiet. That being said I will share with you some views I have on spirituality.
I am not a religious person at all. I dont believe in organized religion finding alot of them hypocritical. I dont like when someone tells me that only there view on God is the correct view. How do you know? Did God specifically come down and tell you that? If He didnt, then you cant be anymore sure than the next folks that your views are the correct ones. Religion is a man made invention. I believe that the old testament/Torah and even Quran were giving folks an idea of the way to live a righteous and good life, not saying this is exactly how things happened but to live a good life you should follow these guidelines. I dont want to offend alot of people here with my views so I wont go into more than that. I also believe in Buddhism who dont believe in a high power, rather just give guidance on proper and prayerful ways to live your life.
So if I'm not religious, but I believe in God, what am I? I am deeply spiritual. I believe in a high power and I choose to call my higher power God. I pray and meditate daily. Meditation can be short like the 25 mins or so it takes me to get to work, or long like on the mornings when I wake up at 5 am I may lay in bed and meditate til 7 or 8 depending on what time I need to get up & start my day. Meditation brings me the most peace. There is no script I am following, I allow my thoughts to flow freely, thinking over events of my life and then focusing them back to God. I may even finish a long thought with a short prayer to bring it back into focus. Prayers for me are short. I pray for life, peace, harmony, love. I pray over my friends and loved ones and for myself. Spiritual people dont tell others how to live their life. I am not judgemental nor hypocritical. How you choose to live your life, is your choice. God gave man free will so it is up to you to make peace with your God and live the life that is best for you and your relationship with Him. If you feel going to church is best for you, then by all means go to church. Personally I found for me that going to church wasnt what was best. It was after I left the church that I found a better relationship with God. I wasnt distracted by all the pomp and circumstance. Wasnt distracted by the dress or gossip. I was free to pray to God and meditate as I saw fit. Whenever or wherever. Not everyone will agree with that decision, but like I said you must find your relationship with God however works best for you. I find I am more prayerful and meditative now than I ever was in church. I pray and meditate daily as opposed to just on Sunday. It has made me a more deeply spiritual person and more at peace with myself and my life. I know there are those who will judge my life harshly and that is fine. My God knows my heart, my life, and all the my flaws and imperfections and accepts me exactly as I am and exactly as I'm not. If you cant do that, then that is on you, not me or my God. Church for me was never a place to find God. It was a place to share God with others. I have known folks who went to church every Sunday and never found God. I never had to go to a building to find Him, He is in my heart always. He speaks to me daily. He speaks as direct thoughts in my head or through others. You ever been someplace scared about what is going to happen, or curious about the future and then someone came along and said exactly what you needed to hear right then? That is God putting the right person at the right place at the exact right time. I believe that wholeheartedly. I even laugh sometimes and say "Ok God I got you..thank you" and keep going.
Tuesday was a good and restful day. It ended with the guy I've been seeing texting me and asking me how I felt. I told him scared. He said it's not the cancer that is going to kill you it's the worrying you do. You cant change what's going to happen so stop worrying. Again, it was exactly what I needed to hear right then so I know God put him there to give me that message. After that I relaxed. I had a big day ahead of me the next day.
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