Tuesday, January 18, 2011- Day 15

I wake up feeling..not normal but as close to normal as I've felt since before this all began. I decide I'm going to go to work. There is a 2 hour delay because of snow so I take my time getting ready. When I leave out I take my time because the pain in my back doesnt allow me to walk but so fast and I'm scared I may fall and make it worse. My roommate walks with me holding my arm keeping me from falling. I go into work and my co-workers are so happy to see me. I havent seen them since before I was diagnosed. They know and are aware of what's been going on but I havent been able to come in. I arrive and everyone comes to my desk and hug me and talk to me. They have questions. They havent seen my hair since I chopped it off but they like it they tell me. I answer questions as well as I can. I cry sometimes as I explain to them the pain the nausea the being sick. I have dropped alot of weight from the constant diarrhea and everyone notices it. I tell them when I feel ok I'll be at work and when I dont, I wont. They understand. I explain how my chemotherapy is spread out over the next few months and that on that week I will be out that Thurs and Fri. They seem to get all this down. I contact several more cancer organizations this day and the American Cancer Society says they will have a nutritionist call me after I tell them about the constant diarrhea. I stay at work all day so by the time I get off I am exhausted. It has been the most hours I've been awake in days so I drink an ensure, take some pain meds, get sick and then fall asleep. I wake up when my roommate gets home and eat more, get sick and go back to sleep.